What I have Lived for 我為何而生（英譯漢）

WhatIhaveLivedfor我為何而生（英譯漢）WhatIHaveLivedForThreepassions,simplebutoverwhelminglystrong,havegovernedmylife:thelongingforlove,thesearchforknowledge,andunbearablepityforthesufferingofmankind.Thesepassions,likegreatwinds,haveblownmehitherandthither,inawaywardcourse,overadeepoceanofanguish,reachingtotheveryvergeofdespair.Ihavesoughtlove,first,becauseitbringsecstasy---ecstasysogreatthatIwouldoftenhavesacrificedalltherestofmylifeforafewhoursforthisjoy.Ihavesoughtit,next,becauseitrelievesloneliness---thatterriblelonelinessinwhichoneshiveringconsciousnesslooksovertherimoftheworldintothecoldunfathomablelifelessabyss.Ihavesoughtit,finally,becauseintheunionofloveIhaveseen,inamysticminiature,theprefiguringvisionoftheheaventhatsaintsandpoetshaveimagined.ThisiswhatIsought,andthoughitmightseemtoogoodforhumanlife,thisiswhat---atlast---Ihavefound.WithequalpassionIhavesoughtknowledge.Ihavewishedtounderstandtheheartsofmen.Ihavewishedtoknowwhythestarsshine.AndIhavetriedtoapprehendthePythagoreanpowerbywhichnumberholdsswayabovetheflux.Alittleofthis,butnotmuch,Ihaveachieved.Loveandknowledge,sofarastheywerepossible,ledupwardtowardtheheavens.Butalwaysitbroughtmebacktoearth.Echoesofcriesofpainreverberateinmyheart.Childreninfamine,victimstorturedbyoppressors,helplessoldpeopleahatedburdentotheirsons,andthewholeworldofloneliness,poverty,andpainmakeamockeryofwhathumanlifeshouldbe.Ilongtoalleviatetheevil,butIcannot,andItoosuffer.Thishasbeenmylife.Ihavefounditworthliving,andwouldgladlyliveitagainifthechancewereofferedme.譯文：我為何而生我的一生被三種簡(jiǎn)單卻又無(wú)比強(qiáng)烈的激情所控制：對(duì)愛(ài)的渴望，對(duì)知識(shí)的探索和對(duì)人類苦難難以抑制的嶼。這些激情像狂風(fēng)，把我恣情吹向四方，掠過(guò)苦痛的大海，迫使我瀕臨絕望的邊緣。我尋求愛(ài)，首先因?yàn)樗刮倚臑橹?，這種難以名狀的美妙迷醉使我愿意用所有的余生去換取哪怕幾個(gè)小時(shí)這樣的幸福。我尋求愛(ài)，還因?yàn)樗芫徑馕倚睦砩系墓陋?dú)中，我感覺(jué)心靈的戰(zhàn)栗，仿如站在世界的邊緣而面前是冰冷，無(wú)底的死亡深淵。我尋求愛(ài)，因?yàn)樵谖宜慷玫慕Y(jié)合中，我仿佛看到了圣賢與詩(shī)人們所向往的天堂之景。這就是我所尋找的，雖然對(duì)人的一生而言似乎有些遙不可及，但至少是我用盡一生所領(lǐng)悟到的。我用同樣的激情去尋求知識(shí)。我希望能理解人類的心靈，希望能夠知道群星閃爍的緣由。我試圖領(lǐng)悟畢達(dá)哥拉斯所景仰的“數(shù)即萬(wàn)物”的思想。我已經(jīng)悟出了其中的一點(diǎn)點(diǎn)道理，盡管并不是很多。愛(ài)和知識(shí)，用它們的力量把人引向天堂。但是同情卻總把人又拽回到塵世中來(lái)。痛苦的呼喊聲回蕩在我的內(nèi)心。饑餓的孩子，受壓迫的難民，貧窮和痛苦的世界，都是對(duì)人類所憧憬的美好生活的無(wú)情嘲弄。我渴望能夠減少邪惡，但是我無(wú)能為力，我也難逃其折磨。這就是我的一生。我已經(jīng)找到它的價(jià)值。而且如果有機(jī)會(huì)，我很愿意能再活它一次。WhatIhaveLivedfor（我為何而生）Threepassions,simplebutoverwhelminglystrong,havegovernedmylife:thelongingforlove,thesearchforknowledge,andunbearablepityforthesufferingofmankind.Thesepassions,likegreatwinds,haveblownmehitherandthither,inawaywardcourse,overadeepoceanofanguish,reachingtotheveryvergeofdespair.三種簡(jiǎn)單卻極其強(qiáng)烈的情感主宰著我的生活：對(duì)愛(ài)的渴望、對(duì)知識(shí)的追求、對(duì)人類痛苦的難以承受的憐憫之心。這三種情感，像一陣陣颶風(fēng)一樣，任意地將我吹的飄來(lái)蕩去，越過(guò)痛苦的海洋，抵達(dá)絕望的彼岸。Ihavesoughtlove,first,becauseitbringsecstasy-ecstasysogreatthatIwouldoftenhavesacrificedalltherestoflifeforafewhoursofthisjoy.Ihavesoughtit,next,becauseitrelievesloneliness?thatterriblelonelinessinwhichoneshiveringconsciousnesslooksovertherimoftheworldintothecoldunfathomablelifelessabyss.Ihavesoughtit,finally,becauseintheunionofloveIhaveseen,inamysticminiature,theprefiguringvisionoftheheaventhatsaintsandpoetshaveimagined.ThisiswhatIsought,andthoughitmightseemtoogoodforhumanlife,thisiswhatatleastIhavefound.我尋找愛(ài)，首先，因?yàn)樗钊诵淖砩衩?，這種沉醉是如此美妙，以至于我愿意用余生來(lái)?yè)Q取那幾個(gè)小時(shí)的快樂(lè)。我尋找愛(ài)，其次是因?yàn)樗鼤?huì)減輕孤獨(dú)，置身于那種可怕的孤獨(dú)中，顫抖的靈魂在世界的邊緣，看到冰冷的、死寂的、無(wú)底深淵。我尋找愛(ài)，還因?yàn)樵趷?ài)水乳交融時(shí)，在一個(gè)神秘的縮影中，我見(jiàn)到了先賢和詩(shī)人們所想象的、預(yù)覽的天堂。這就是我所追求的，盡管對(duì)于凡人來(lái)說(shuō)，這好像是一種奢望。但這是我最終找到的。WithequalpassionIhavesoughtknowledge.Ihavewishedtounderstandtheheartsofmen.Ihavewishedtoknowwhythestarsshine.AndIhavetriedtoapprehendthePythagoreanpowerbywhichnumberholdsswayovertheflux.Alittleofthis,butnotmuch,Ihaveachieved.我曾以同樣的熱情來(lái)追求知識(shí)。我希望能理解人類的心靈，希望能知道為什么星星會(huì)發(fā)光。我也曾經(jīng)努力理解畢達(dá)哥拉斯學(xué)派的理論，他們認(rèn)為數(shù)字主載著萬(wàn)物的此消彼長(zhǎng)。我了解了一點(diǎn)知識(shí)，但是不多。Loveandknowledge,sofarastheywerepossible,ledupwardtowardtheheavens.Butalwayspitybroughtmebacktoearth.Echoesofcriesofpainreverberateinmyheart.Childreninfamine,victimstorturedbyoppressors,helplessoldpeopleahatedburdentotheirsons,andthewholeworldofloneliness,poverty,andpainmakeamockeryofwhathumanlifeshouldbe.Ilongtoalleviatetheevil,butIcannot,andItoosuffer.愛(ài)和知識(shí)，可以最大可能地，將人帶入天堂。可是，憐憫總是將我?guī)Щ氐孛?。人們因痛苦而發(fā)出的哭聲在我心中久久回響，那些饑荒中的孩子們，被壓迫者摧殘的受害者們，被子女視為可憎負(fù)擔(dān)的、無(wú)助的老人們，以及那無(wú)處不在的孤單、貧窮和無(wú)助都在諷刺著人類所本應(yīng)該有的生活。我渴望能夠消除人世間的邪惡，可是力不從心，我自己也同樣遭受著它們的折磨。Thishasbeenmylife.Ihavefounditw