雙語(yǔ)美文：讓昨日隨風(fēng)-Letting-Go-of-Yesterday

雙語(yǔ)美文：讓昨日隨風(fēng)LettingGoof

Yesterday2022年2月12日，星期六，那天發(fā)生的兩件事轉(zhuǎn)變了我的此后的生活。第一件是小妹妹那天結(jié)婚了。當(dāng)時(shí)她已經(jīng)26歲了，但對(duì)我來(lái)說(shuō)，她還是我的小妹妹。我總是把她看作小女孩，也把她當(dāng)一個(gè)小女孩來(lái)對(duì)待。我想這是由于我盼望通過(guò)這種方式來(lái)永葆青春。直到看到她身著婚紗的那一刻,出現(xiàn)在我腦海的還是那個(gè)小圓臉蛋，長(zhǎng)長(zhǎng)的褐色馬尾巴在風(fēng)中搖擺的小女孩；或許還有一塊巧克力總是粘在她那粉紅色的嘴唇上。我想人總是觀察自己想看的東西。眼前這位容光煥發(fā)、線條美麗的女人是誰(shuí)呢？Iwashappythatday,andalsosad.Gonewerethedaysofmebossingheraroundandtellingherwhatsheshoulddowithherlife.MybossybehaviorhadearnedmethenicknameLucy.IfyouareaPeanutsfanthenyoucanclearlyimaginemybehaviorasanoldersister.Tomeitwasn“taninsult；IratherlikethenicknameLucy.IhappentothinkthatLucyisstrongandhasincredibleself-confidence,althoughsheisalittleoverbearingattimes.Ididmybesttoliveuptothestandardssetforthbythisdynamiccartooncharacter.那天我既快樂(lè)又難過(guò)。過(guò)去我對(duì)她呼來(lái)喚去，告知她生活應(yīng)當(dāng)怎樣過(guò)的日子已經(jīng)一去不回了。由于獨(dú)斷蠻橫我得到了露西這個(gè)外號(hào)。假如你也喜愛(ài)看《花生》這部動(dòng)畫(huà)片，那你肯定可以想象我作為一個(gè)大姐姐的樣子。我不覺(jué)得這個(gè)外號(hào)是一種污辱，反倒很喜愛(ài)它。我有時(shí)還想，強(qiáng)大的露西自信得令人難以置信，雖然她有時(shí)也讓人難以忍受。我努力向這個(gè)生氣勃勃的卡通形象看齊。IleftthereceptiontogetsomeairbecausesuddenlyIwasovercomewithgriefattherealizationthatIwasnolongerachild.Iwentoutsideandwalkedtoanearbyplaygroundwheretherewerechildrenplayingontheslide,theswingsanddigginginthedirt.Therewasalittlegirltwirlingaroundonabar,onekneewrappedtightlyaroundthebarandfashionedbehindherknee.ItwasallIcoulddotositthereandjustwatch,forItoowantedtogetonthatbarwithherandseeifIcouldstillholdtheall-timetwirlingrecord(ninety-ninetimesinfifthgrade).SomewhereinsideIknewthatIwouldbreakmyneck,andIwaswearingabridesmaiddress.Notexactlyplaygroundmaterial.AndsoIsatwatchingthechildrenplay.I"mnotsurehowlongIsattherebeforemysistercameandjoinedme.Wetalkedabouthowwearegrownupnowandshedafewtearsforourchildhooddaysgoneby.Asshewipedatearfrommyeyeshelovinglysaid,“you”11alwaysbeLucytome."Wehugged.我離開(kāi)了婚禮現(xiàn)場(chǎng)，到外面去呼吸些新奇空氣。我突然傷感不已，由于自己已經(jīng)不再是個(gè)孩子了。我走到外面，來(lái)到四周的一個(gè)運(yùn)動(dòng)場(chǎng)邊，小孩子正在那里玩滑梯、蕩秋千、玩泥沙。有個(gè)小女孩正在一個(gè)杠上快速地轉(zhuǎn)動(dòng)，一條腿緊緊地勾在杠上。而我所能做的只是坐在那里看看，我也想跟她一起玩，看看能否再重現(xiàn)當(dāng)年自己轉(zhuǎn)圈的記錄（五年級(jí)時(shí)一次到達(dá)99次）。但我很清晰，這樣我可能會(huì)扭斷脖子。再說(shuō)我正穿著伴娘服，不適合運(yùn)動(dòng)。于是我只好坐在那里看孩子們玩耍。不知過(guò)了多久，妹妹來(lái)到我身邊。我們談起自己已經(jīng)長(zhǎng)大了，并為逝去的孩童時(shí)間流下了淚。她替我擦干眼淚，布滿愛(ài)意地說(shuō)：“你永久都是我的露西?！拔覀儞肀г诹艘黄?。MycousinMikewalkedoverandtoldmysisterthatitwastimetocutthecake.Andthenhedroppedbombnumbertwoonme."Hey,didyouguyshearthatCharlesSchultzdiedtoday?”Hesaiditlikeitwasnobigdeal.Hetookmysister“sarmandturnedtoheadbackforthereceptionhall.uComing?”Theyasked."Inaminute.“Ireplied,andsatbackdownonthebench,dizzyfromwhathehadjusttoldme.表弟邁克走過(guò)來(lái)告知妹妹該切蛋糕了。接著他給我扔下了其次顆炸彈「嘿,你們知道查爾斯?舒爾茲今日去世了嗎？“他說(shuō)得很輕松，然后挽著妹妹的手臂向婚禮現(xiàn)場(chǎng)走去?！眮?lái)嗎？”他們問(wèn)道。”等會(huì)兒，“我答復(fù)說(shuō)，又在椅子上坐了下來(lái)，他剛剛告知我的消息讓我眩暈。Dead?HowcouldCharlesSchultzbedead?Hewasmycreator!AndthoughIhavenevermetthemanpersonally,hehasalwaysbeenlikeaninvisiblefathertome.Hedid,afterall,fashionafamouscharacterafterme.Ilostsomanythingsonthisday.Innocenceslippedawayfrommelikeathiefinthenight：comeandgonebeforeIcoulddoanythingaboutit,takingwithitallthetreasuresthatIheldmostvaluableinmyheart.Ifeltmyselfgrowup,allinonemoment.Realityrushedinaroundmelikeahurricanetide.Therewasnowheretorunto.AllIcoulddowassitthereandwatchitdestroyandreshapewhathadexistedonlyamomentbefore.Iwasnolongerachild.IwasnolongerLucywhoknewwhatwasbestforeveryoneelse.Isaw,forthefirsttime,whatIreallywas一athirty-yearoldwomanwithahusbandofmyown,andsoon,achildofmyown.去世了？查爾斯?舒爾茲怎么可能會(huì)去世呢？是他制造了我！雖然我從來(lái)沒(méi)和他見(jiàn)過(guò)面，但對(duì)于我來(lái)說(shuō)，他始終都像是一位看不見(jiàn)的父親一樣。他究竟為我制造了一個(gè)出名的角色。就在那一天，我失去了那么多東西，童真就像一個(gè)在夜里行竊的小偷一樣，無(wú)聲無(wú)息地溜走了：在我還來(lái)不及做點(diǎn)什么的時(shí)候就已經(jīng)走了，帶走了我心底深處最珍貴的財(cái)寶。就在那一刻，我意識(shí)到自己已經(jīng)長(zhǎng)大了?，F(xiàn)實(shí)像暴風(fēng)浪一樣向我襲來(lái)。我無(wú)處可逃。我只能坐在那里，看著它把剛剛還存在的東西毀掉，接著又重塑。我不再是個(gè)孩子。我不再是知道那個(gè)神通廣闊的露西了。我第一次意識(shí)到真正的我 個(gè)有自己的丈夫，很快會(huì)有我們的孩子的三十歲的女人。Iallowedthetidetocarrymysadnessoutwithit.Takeitouttosea,foritservesnopurposeinmylife.Istoodupfromthebench；alittletallerthanIwaswhenIsatdown.Iturnedandheadedbacktothehall,hopingIdidn“tmissthecuttingofthecake.It