Unit-6-Mrriage全新版大學(xué)英語綜合教程五課文翻譯

Unit6MrriageTextATheLegacy1'ForSissyMiller.'GilbertClandon,takingupthepearlbroochthatlayamongalitterofringsandbroochesonalittletableinhiswife'sdrawing-room,readtheinscription:'ForSissyMiller,withmylove.'2ItwaslikeAngelatohaverememberedevenSissyMiller,hersecretary.Yethowstrangeitwas,GilbertClandonthoughtoncemore,thatshehadlefteverythinginsuchorder—alittlegiftofsomesortforeveryoneofherfriends.Itwasasifshehadforeseenherdeath.Yetshehadbeeninperfecthealthwhensheleftthehousethatmorning,sixweeksago;whenshesteppedoffthekerbinPiccadillyandthecarhadkilledher.3HewaswaitingforSissyMiller.Hehadaskedhertocome;heowedher,hefelt,afteralltheyearsshehadbeenwiththem,thistokenofconsideration.Yes,hewenton,ashesattherewaiting,itwasstrangethatAngelahadlefteverythinginsuchorder.Everyfriendhadbeenleftsomelittletokenofheraffection.Everyring,everynecklace,everylittleChinesebox—shehadapassionforlittleboxes—hadanameonit.Tohim,ofcourse,shehadleftnothinginparticular,unlessitwereherdiary.Fifteenlittlevolumes,boundingreenleather,stoodbehindhimonherwritingtable.Eversincetheyweremarried,shehadkeptadiary.Someoftheirveryfew—hecouldnotcallthemquarrels,saytiffs—hadbeenaboutthatdiary.Whenhecameinandfoundherwriting,shealwaysshutitorputherhandoverit.'No,no,no,'hecouldhearhersay,'AfterI'mdead—perhaps.'Soshehadleftithim,asherlegacy.Itwastheonlythingtheyhadnotsharedwhenshewasalive.Buthehadalwaystakenitforgrantedthatshewouldoutlivehim.Ifonlyshehadstoppedonemoment,andhadthoughtwhatshewasdoing,shewouldbealivenow.Butshehadsteppedstraightoffthekerb,thedriverofthecarhadsaidattheinquest.Shehadgivenhimnochancetopullup...Herethesoundofvoicesinthehallinterruptedhim.4'MissMiller,Sir,'saidthemaid.5Shecamein.Shewasterriblydistressed,andnowonder.Angelahadbeenmuchmoretoherthananemployer.Shehadbeenafriend.Tohimself,hethought,ashepushedachairforherandaskedhertositdown,shewasscarcelydistinguishablefromanyotherwomanofherkind.TherewerethousandsofSissyMillers—drablittlewomeninblackcarryingattachécases.ButAngela,withhergeniusforsympathy,haddiscoveredallsortsofqualitiesinSissyMiller.Shewasthesoulofdiscretion,sosilent,sotrustworthy,onecouldtellheranything,andsoon.6MissMillercouldnotspeakatfirst.Shesattheredabbinghereyeswithherpockethandkerchief.Thenshemadeaneffort.7'Pardonme,MrClandon,'shesaid.8Hemurmured.Ofcourseheunderstood.Itwasonlynatural.Hecouldguesswhathiswifehadmeanttoher.9'I'vebeensohappyhere,'shesaid,lookinground.Hereyesrestedonthewritingtablebehindhim.Itwasheretheyhadworked—sheandAngela.ForAngelahadhershareofthedutiesthatfalltothelotofthewifeofaprominentpolitician,shehadbeenthegreatesthelptohiminhiscareer.HehadoftenseenherandSissysittingatthattable—Sissyatthetypewriter,takingdownlettersfromherdictation.NodoubtMissMillerwasthinkingofthat,too.Nowallhehadtodowastogiveherthebroochhiswifehadlefther.Aratherincongruousgiftitseemed.Itmighthavebeenbettertohaveleftherasumofmoney.Oreventhetypewriter.Butthereitwas—'ForSissyMiller,withmylove.'And,takingthebrooch,hegaveitherwiththelittlespeechthathehadprepared.Heknew,hesaid,thatshewouldvalueit.Hiswifehadoftenwornit...Andshereplied,asshetookit,almostasifshetoohadpreparedaspeech,thatitwouldalwaysbeatreasuredpossession....Shehad,hesupposed,otherclothesuponwhichapearlbroochwouldnotlookquitesoincongruous.Shewaswearingthelittleblackcoatandskirtthatseemedtheuniformofherprofession.Thenheremembered—shewasinmourning,ofcourse.Shetoohadhadhertragedy—abrother,towhomshewasdevoted,haddiedonlyaweekortwobeforeAngela.Insomeaccident,wasit?HecouldrememberonlyAngelatellinghim;Angela,withhergeniusforsympathy,hadbeenterriblyupset.MeanwhileSissyMillerhadrisen.Shewasputtingonhergloves.Evidentlyshefeltthatsheoughtnottointrude.Buthecouldnotlethergowithoutsayingsomethingaboutherfuture.Andsoheadded,ashepressedherhand.'Remember,MissMiller,ifthere'sanywayinwhichIcanhelpyou,itwillbeapleasure'Thenheopenedthedoor.Foramoment,onthethreshold,asifasuddenthoughthadstruckher,shestopped.10'MrClandon,'shesaid,lookingstraightathimforthefirsttime,andforthefirsttimehewasstruckbytheexpression,sympatheticyetsearching,inhereyes.'Ifatanytime,'shewassaying,'there'sanythingIcandotohelpyou,remember,Ishallfeelit,foryourwife'ssake,apleasure'11Withthatshewasgone.Herwordsandthelookthatwentwiththemwereunexpected.Itwasalmostasifshebelieved,orhoped,thathewouldhaveneedofher.Acurious,perhapsafantasticideaoccurredtohimashereturnedtohischair.Coulditbe,thatduringallthoseyearswhenhehadscarcelynoticedher,she,asthenovelistssay,hadentertainedapassionforhim?Hecaughthisownreflectionintheglassashepassed.Hewasoverfifty;buthecouldnothelpadmittingthathewasstill,asthelooking-glassshowedhim,averydistinguished-lookingman.12'PoorSissyMiller!'hesaid,halflaughing.Howhewouldhavelikedtosharethatjokewithhiswife!Heturnedinstinctivelytoherdiary.'Gilbert,'heread,openingitatrandom,'lookedsowonderful'Itwasasifshehadansweredhisquestion.Ofcourse,sheseemedtosay,you'reveryattractivetowomen.OfcourseSissyMillerfeltthattoo.Hereadon.'HowproudIamtobehiswife!'Andhehadalwaysbeenveryproudtobeherhusband.Howoftenwhentheydinedoutsomewherehehadlookedatheracrossthetableandsaidtohimself.Sheistheloveliestwomanhere!Hereadon.ThatfirstyearhehadbeenstandingforParliament.Theyhadtouredhisconstituency.'WhenGilbertsatdowntheapplausewasterrific.Thewholeaudienceroseandsang:"Forhe'sajollygoodfellow."Iwasquiteovercome.'Herememberedthat,too.Shehadbeensittingontheplatformbesidehim.Hecouldstillseetheglanceshecastathim,andhowshehadtearsinhereyes.Hereadonrapidly,fillinginsceneafterscenefromherscrappyfragments.'DinedattheHouseofCommonsToaneveningpartyattheLovegroves.DidIrealizemyresponsibility,LadyL.askedme,asGilbert'swife?'Thenastheyearspassed—hetookanothervolumefromthewritingtable—hehadbecomemoreandmoreabsorbedinhiswork.Andshe,ofcourse,wasmoreoftenalone.Ithadbeenagreatgrieftoher,apparently,thattheyhadhadnochildren.'HowIwish,'oneentryread,'thatGilberthadason!'Oddlyenoughhehadnevermuchregrettedthathimself.Lifehadbeensofull,sorichasitwas.Thatyearhehadbeengivenaminorpostinthegovernment.Aminorpostonly,buthercommentwas:'IamquitecertainnowthathewillbePrimeMinister!'Well,ifthingshadgonedifferently,itmighthavebeenso.Hepausedheretospeculateuponwhatmighthavebeen.Politicswasagamble,hereflected;butthegamewasn'toveryet.Notatfifty.Hecasthiseyesrapidlyovermorepages,fullofthelittletrifles,theinsignificant,happy,dailytriflesthathadmadeupherlife.13Hetookupanothervolumeandopeneditatrandom.'WhatacowardIam!Iletthechanceslipagain.Butitseemedselfishtobotherhimaboutmyownaffairs,whenhehassomuchtothinkabout.Andwesoseldomhaveaneveningalone.'Whatwasthemeaningofthat?Ohherewastheexplanation—itreferredtoherworkintheEastEnd.'IpluckedupcourageandtalkedtoGilbertatlast.Hewassokind,sogood.Hemadenoobjection.'Herememberedthatconversation.Shehadtoldhimthatshefeltsoidle,souseless.Shewishedtohavesomeworkofherown.Shewantedtodosomething—shehadblushedsoprettily,heremembered,asshesaiditsittinginthatverychair—tohelpothers.SoeveryWednesdayshewenttoWhitechapel.Herememberedhowhehatedtheclothessheworeonthoseoccasions.Butshehadtakenitveryseriouslyitseemed.Thediarywasfullofreferenceslikethis:'SawMrsJonesShehastenchildrenHusbandlosthisarminanaccident....DidmybesttofindajobforLily.'Heskippedon.Hisownnameoccurredlessfrequently.Hisinterestslackened.Someoftheentriesconveyednothingtohim.Forexample:'HadaheatedargumentaboutsocialismwithB.M.'WhowasB.M.?Hecouldnotfillintheinitials;somewoman,hesupposed,thatshehadmetononeofhercommittees.'B.M.madeaviolentattackupontheupperclasses....IwalkedbackafterthemeetingwithB.M.andtriedtoconvincehim.Butheissonarrow-minded.'SoB.M.wasaman—nodoubtoneofthose'intellectuals'astheycallthemselves,whoaresoviolent,asAngelasaid,andsonarrow-minded.Shehadinvitedhimtocomeandseeherapparently.'B.M.cametodinner.HeshookhandswithMinnie!'Thatnoteofexclamationgaveanothertwisttohismentalpicture.B.M.,itseemed,wasn'tusedtoparlour-maids:hehadshakenhandswithMinnie.Presumablyhewasoneofthosetameworkingmenwhoairtheirviewsinladies'drawing-rooms.Gilbertknewthetype,andhadnolikingforthisparticularspecimen,whoeverB.M.mightbe.Herehewasagain.'WentwithB.M.totheTowerofLondonHesaidrevolutionisboundtocome....HesaidweliveinaFool'sparadise.'ThatwasjustthekindofthingB.M.wouldsay—Gilbertcouldhearhim.Hecouldalsoseehimquitedistinctly—astubbylittleman,witharoughbeard,redtie,dressedastheyalwaysdidintweeds,whohadneverdoneanhonestday'sworkinhislife.SurelyAngelahadthesensetoseethroughhim?Hereadon.'B.M.saidsomeverydisagreeablethingsabout....'Thenamewascarefullyscratchedout.'Iwouldnotlistentoanymoreabuseof....'Againthenamewasobliterated.Couldithavebeenhisownname?WasthatwhyAngelacoveredthepagesoquicklywhenhecamein?ThethoughtaddedtohisgrowingdislikeofB.M.Hehadhadtheimpertinencetodiscusshiminthisveryroom.WhyhadAngelanevertoldhim?Itwasveryunlikehertoconcealanything;shehadbeenthesoulofcandour.Heturnedthepages,pickingouteveryreferencetoB.M.'B.M.toldmethestoryofhischildhood.HismotherwentoutcharringWhenIthinkofit,IcanhardlybeartogoonlivinginsuchluxuryThreeguineasforonehat!'Ifonlyshehaddiscussedthematterwithhim,insteadofpuzzlingherpoorlittleheadaboutquestionsthatweremuchtoodifficultforhertounderstand!Hehadlentherbooks.KarlMarx.'TheComingRevolution.'TheinitialsB.M.,B.M.,B.M.,recurredrepeatedly.Butwhyneverthefullname?Hereadon.'B.M.cameunexpectedlyafterdinner.Luckily,Iwasalone.'Thatwasonlyayearago.'Luckily'—whyluckily?—'Iwasalone.'Wherehadhebeenthatnight?Hecheckedthedateinhisengagementbook.IthadbeenthenightoftheMansionHousedinner.AndB.M.andAngelahadspenttheeveningalone!Hetriedtorecallthatevening.Wasshewaitingupforhimwhenhecameback?Hadtheroomlookedjustasusual?Werethereglassesonthetable?Werethechairsdrawnclosetogether?Hecouldremembernothing—nothingwhatever.Itbecamemoreandmoreinexplicabletohim—thewholesituation:hiswifereceivinganunknownmanalone.Perhapsthenextvolumewouldexplain.Hastilyhereachedforthelastofthediaries—theoneshehadleftunfinishedwhenshedied.Thereontheveryfirstpagewasthatcursedfellowagain.'DinedalonewithB.MHebecameveryagitated.HesaiditwastimeweunderstoodeachotherItriedtomakehimlisten.Buthewouldnot.HethreatenedthatifIdidnot...'therestofthepagewasscoredover.Hecouldnotmakeoutasingleword;buttherecouldbeonlyoneinterpretation:thescoundrelhadaskedhertobecomehismistress.Aloneinhisroom!ThebloodrushedtoGilbertClandon'sface.Heturnedthepagesrapidly.Whathadbeenheranswer?Initialshadceased.Itwassimply'he'now.'Hecameagain.ItoldhimIcouldnotcometoanydecisionIimploredhimtoleaveme.'Hehadforcedhimselfuponherinthisveryhouse?Butwhyhadn'tshetoldhim?Howcouldshehavehesitatedforaninstant?Then:'Iwrotehimaletter.'Thenpageswereleftblank.Thentherewasthis:'Noanswertomyletter.'Thenmoreblankpages:andthenthis:'Hehasdonewhathethreatened.'Afterthat—whatcameafterthat?Heturnedpageafterpage.Allwereblank.Butthere,ontheverydaybeforeherdeath,wasthisentry:'HaveIthecouragetodoittoo?'Thatwastheend.14GilbertClandonletthebookslidetothefloor.Hecouldseeherinfrontofhim.ShewasstandingonthekerbinPiccadilly.Hereyesstared;herfistswereclenched.Herecamethecar...15Hecouldnotbearit.Hemustknowthetruth.Hestrodetothetelephone.16'MissMiller!'Therewassilence.Thenheheardsomeonemovingintheroom.17'SissyMillerspeaking'—hervoiceatlastansweredhim.18'Who,'hethundered,'isB.M.?'19Hecouldhearthecheapclocktickingonhermantelpiece:thenalongdrawnsigh.Thenatlastshesaid:20'Hewasmybrother.'21Hewasherbrother;herbrotherwhohadkilledhimself.22'Isthere,'heheardSissyMillerasking,'anythingthatIcanexplain?'23'Nothing!'hecried.'Nothing!'24Hehadreceivedhislegacy.Shehadtoldhimthetruth.Shehadsteppedoffthekerbtorejoinherlover.Shehadsteppedoffthekerbtoescapefromhim.遺贈物弗吉妮婭·伍爾芙“給西瑟·米勒?！奔獱柌亍た颂m登拿起放在太太客廳小桌子上那一堆戒指和胸針中的那枚珍珠胸針，念著上面的字：“給西瑟·米勒，謹(jǐn)致愛意?！彼B自己的秘書西瑟·米勒都記在心里，安吉拉就是這樣的人。可多奇怪，吉爾伯特·克蘭登又一次想著，她居然把一切都安排得那么井然有序——每一位朋友都有一件小小的禮物。似乎她預(yù)見到了自己的死?？墒牵鶄€星期前，她在那天上午離家時身體很好,正當(dāng)她走下皮卡迪利大街的人行道時，一輛汽車把她撞死。他在等西瑟·米勒。他請她來的。他覺得她與他們夫婦倆相處了那么多年，自己應(yīng)當(dāng)以這種方式表示關(guān)心。真的，他坐在那兒等著，心里還在想，安吉拉把一切安排得這么井然有序，是很奇怪。每個朋友都得到一份代表她的情誼的小小禮物。每一枚戒指，每一串項(xiàng)鏈，每一個小巧的中國盒——她對小巧的盒子情有獨(dú)鐘——都有個名字附在上面。當(dāng)然，她沒給他留下什么特別的物品，除非是她的那些日記。15本小本子，用綠色皮面裝幀，全都擺放在他身后的書桌上?；楹笏烷_始記日記了。兩人偶有的——稱不上爭吵，只能說是別扭——都是為了這些日記。每當(dāng)他走進(jìn)房間看到她在寫，她總是合上本子，或用手按著?！安唬恍?，不行，”他會聽到她說，“也許，等我死后吧。”就這樣，她把日記作為遺物留給了他。這是她生前夫婦倆惟一不曾共同擁有的東西。不過他一直認(rèn)為自己一定會先走。只要她停頓片刻，想一想自己在干什么，此刻她就依然在這世上?？伤龔街弊呦氯诵械?，在接受調(diào)查時那位駕車者這么說。她令他措手不及……就在這時，大廳里的說話聲打斷了他的思緒?！懊桌招〗銇砹?，先生，”女仆說。她走了進(jìn)來。她極為悲傷，這也難怪。安吉拉不僅僅是她的雇主。還是她的朋友。在他自己看來，他一邊暗自想著，一邊為她拉過一張椅子，請她坐下，她和所有像她這種身份的人幾乎沒有什么區(qū)別。有成千上萬個西瑟?米勒——毫無情趣的小婦人，身穿緇衣，手提公文包?？商焐鷷槿说陌布谖魃?米勒身上發(fā)現(xiàn)了種種優(yōu)良品質(zhì)。她十分謹(jǐn)慎，守口如瓶，值得信任，你什么話都可以對她說，等等。米勒小姐開始時說不出話來。她坐在那兒用手帕輕拭眼睛。接著她定了定神?！罢堅彛颂m登先生，”她說。他含糊應(yīng)了一聲。他當(dāng)然明白。這太自然了。他想像得出妻子對她意味著什么?！拔以谶@里一向非常愉快，”她說著，環(huán)顧四周。她的目光落在他身后的書桌上。她倆就是在這里工作的——她和安吉拉。因?yàn)榘布缲?fù)著政要夫人應(yīng)該承擔(dān)的各種責(zé)任，在他的政治生涯中她給了他極大的幫助。他經(jīng)?？匆娝臀魃谶@張書桌旁——西瑟把她口授的信件用打字機(jī)打出。不用說，米勒小姐也在想這些往事?，F(xiàn)在他所要做的就是把太太留給她的胸針交給她。這件禮物似乎不太合適。還不如給她一筆錢呢。即便那臺打字機(jī)也更合適些?？墒嵌Y物早已安排好了——“給西瑟?米勒，謹(jǐn)致愛意?！彼弥蒯?，交給她時講了幾句事先想好的話。他深知，他說，她會珍惜這枚胸針。他夫人生前經(jīng)常佩戴它……她接過胸針時回答說，簡直也像事先準(zhǔn)備過似的，它永遠(yuǎn)是件珍愛之物……他猜想她有別的跟這枚珍珠胸針更相配的衣服。她身上穿著黑衣黑裙，像是她那種職業(yè)的人穿的制服。他隨即想起，她是穿著喪服，沒錯。她自己也遇到了傷心事——她一向愛著的一位兄弟，在安吉拉之前的一兩個星期去世了。好像是什么意外？他只記得安吉拉跟自己說過；天生會同情人的安吉拉為此非常難過。他這么想著時西瑟?米勒已經(jīng)站了起來。她正在戴手套。顯然她覺得自己不該打擾?？墒牵荒軐λ膶聿槐硎疽幌玛P(guān)心就讓她走。于是他一邊說，一邊緊緊握著她的手。“請記住，米勒小姐，若需幫助盡管開口，本人定當(dāng)效勞……”說著，他打開門。剎那間，她似乎突然想到了什么，在門口停了下來?！翱颂m登先生，”她說，目光第一次直視著他，他第一次為她的眼神暗暗吃驚，既流露出同情又十分銳利。“如果什么時候，”她說道，“有什么事我能幫上忙，請記住，為了夫人，我會很高興為您效勞……”說完她走了。她的話，還有說話時的神態(tài)真是出乎意料。就好像她以為，或者希望，自己會需要她。他坐回到椅子里時，產(chǎn)生了一個離奇的，甚或是荒唐的念頭。會不會，那么多年來，雖然自己很少注意過她，她卻像那些小說家寫的那樣對自己暗生情愫？他走過鏡子時瞄了一眼鏡子中的自己。他已經(jīng)年過半百，可他不得不承認(rèn)，自己依舊儀表堂堂，就像剛才鏡子里看到的那樣?！翱蓱z的西瑟?米勒!”他說著，微微一笑。他多想能把這件趣事講給太太聽!他下意識地取過她的日記。“吉爾伯特，”他信手翻開來讀道，“看上去真英俊……”簡直就像是她回答了自己的問題。沒錯，她仿佛在說，你讓女人著迷。當(dāng)然，西瑟?米勒也有同感。他接著讀下去?！俺蔀樗奶腋械教珮s幸了!”而他也一向以做她的丈夫?yàn)闃s。多少次，兩人外出就餐，他望著對座的她，暗自說。這兒數(shù)她最楚楚動人。他接著讀?；楹蟮谝荒晁傔x議員。兩人一起在選區(qū)訪問?！凹獱柌刈聲r，掌聲雷動。聽眾全體起立，高唱著：‘他是個大好人。’我感動萬分?！彼灿浧鹆诉@事。她和自己并肩坐在臺上。他仍記得她向自己投來的目光，記得她兩眼噙著淚水。他快速讀下去，她那些零亂的片斷一幕幕涌入他的腦海?！霸谙伦h院就餐……前往洛夫格羅夫府參加晚會。作為吉爾伯特的太太，洛夫格羅夫夫人問我，我可曾意識到身負(fù)的責(zé)任？”光陰一年年逝去——他從書桌上取過另一本日記簿——他越來越專注于工作。而她，獨(dú)處的時間自然也越來越多。他倆沒孩子，顯然她對此深感悲傷。“我多希望，”有一天的日記里寫著，“吉爾伯特有個兒子!”奇怪的是，他本人從不怎么以此為憾事。生活那么豐富，那么充實(shí)，的確如此。那年派給了他一個無足輕重的政府中的職務(wù)。一個小職位而已，可她的評論竟然是：“現(xiàn)在我相信他會當(dāng)上首相!”嗯，如果情況朝另外的方向發(fā)展，或許果真如此了。他略略停頓，思忖著事情的進(jìn)展或許會如何不同。政治就是一場賭博，他想；可這游戲還沒完呢。年方五十還有機(jī)會。他目光飛快地掠過一頁又一頁日記，都是些瑣碎小事，那些構(gòu)成她生活的無關(guān)緊要的快樂瑣事。他又取過一本，信手翻開?！拔艺媸莻€懦夫!我又讓機(jī)會溜走了?？墒?，他有那么多事要考慮，而我卻用自己的事去打攪他，而且我倆很少有機(jī)會單獨(dú)在一起度過一個夜晚，這未免太自私了?！边@話是什么意思？哦這里有說明——指的是她在倫敦東區(qū)的工作。“我鼓起勇氣，終于跟吉爾伯特談了。他真好，太好了。他一點(diǎn)也不反對?！彼浧鹆四谴握勗?。她跟他說她覺得無所事事，像個廢物。她希望能做點(diǎn)事。她想做些什么——她漲紅著臉，那么可愛，他回想起來了，她說話時就坐在那張椅子里——去幫助別人。于是，她每星期三去懷特查普爾。他回想起來，自己是多么討厭她去那兒時的穿戴。可看來她還真把這當(dāng)一回事。日記里提到的全是這類事：“見到瓊斯太太……她有十個孩子……丈夫在事故中失去了一條手臂……盡我的努力給莉莉找了個工作?！彼焖贋g覽著。自己的名字出現(xiàn)得少了。他的興趣也不大了。有些記載他讀了覺得莫名其妙。比如：“與B.M.就社會主義展開了激烈爭論。”誰是B.M.？他光看首字母猜不出來；是某位女士，他猜想，是她在某個委員會里認(rèn)識的。“B.M.對上層社會大加抨擊……會后我和B.M.一起步行回來，我想說服他?？伤枷腭郦M?！本褪钦fB.M.是個男的——肯定就是自稱“知識分子”的那類人，言詞非常激烈，就像安吉拉說的那樣，而且思想十分褊狹。顯然是她邀請他來訪?！癇.M.前來赴宴。他竟然與明妮握手!”這句話的驚嘆語氣使他對此人的印象更糟了。B.M.可能沒見識過客廳女仆：他竟然與明妮握了手。大概他是那種聽使喚的工人，在夫人小姐的起居室里發(fā)表自己的看法。吉爾伯特見識過那種人，且不論這位B.M.究竟是何許人，他對這人全無好感。又寫到這人?！昂虰.M.一起去倫敦塔……他說革命必將來臨……他說我們陶醉在虛無縹緲的樂境之中?！边@是B.M.常說的那種話——吉爾伯特完全料得到。他還能清楚地看到他的樣子——一個矮矮胖胖的小男人，胡子拉茬，系著紅色領(lǐng)帶，穿著他們這種人天天穿的粗花呢衣服，一輩子從沒干過一天正經(jīng)活兒。安吉拉總該有頭腦看穿這種人吧？他往下讀?！癇.M.說了些很難聽的話，是有關(guān)……”名字被小心翼翼地劃掉了?！拔以僖膊幌肼犨@些對……的詆毀之詞了。”名字又被劃掉了。會不會是他自己的名字？會不會就為這個安吉拉在他進(jìn)來時急急忙忙地把本子遮?。窟@一想法越發(fā)加深了他對B.M.的厭惡。他如此放肆，竟然就在這個房間里議論起他來了。可安吉拉怎么從沒跟自己說起呢？她才不會對他隱瞞什么呢；她是直率誠懇的化身。他一頁頁翻著，找出提及B.M.的文句?！癇.M.跟我講了他童年的事。他母親到別人家里干雜活……想到這一點(diǎn)，我真不愿繼續(xù)過如此奢侈的生活……一頂帽子就花去三幾尼!”她只要跟自己談?wù)勥@事就好了，用不著讓她那可憐的小腦袋為這種她理解不了的事而煩惱嘛!他借書給她看?？?馬克思。《即將來臨的革命》。B.M.，B.M.，B.M.的縮寫一再重復(fù)出現(xiàn)?？蔀槭裁床挥萌兀克伦x?！巴聿秃驜.M.未經(jīng)邀請自己來了。幸好我一人在家?！蹦遣贿^是一年前的事?！靶液谩薄獮槭裁葱液?？——“我一人在家?！弊约耗翘焱砩先ツ睦锪?？他查了查約會簿里的日期。那個晚上是去市長官邸赴宴。B.M.和安吉拉那天晚上單獨(dú)在一起!他試圖回憶那晚的情形。他回家時她有沒有在等他？屋子里看上去跟平時一樣嗎？桌上有沒有杯子？椅子有沒有靠在一起？他什么也回想不起來——一點(diǎn)都想不起來了。這事變得越來越莫名其妙——整個事件：太太獨(dú)自一人接待一個陌生男子。也許下一本日記能解釋一切。他急急抓過最后一本日記簿——她生前沒記完的那本。第一頁赫然在目的又是那該死的家伙?！耙粋€人與B.M.進(jìn)餐……他非常激動。他說咱倆該相互理解了……我想讓他聽我說。可他不聽。他威脅說要是我不……”這一頁其余的文字全都被涂抹掉了。他一個字也無法辨認(rèn)；可只有一個解釋：那個混蛋要她做他的情人。兩人單獨(dú)在他的房間!熱血涌上了吉爾伯特?克蘭登的臉。他快速地一頁頁翻過去。她怎么回答的呢？首字母不見了。現(xiàn)在干脆只說“他”了?！八謥砹恕Ｎ腋嬖V他我做不了決定。我懇求他離開我。”他就在這所房子里迫她就范？可是為什么她不跟自己說呢？她用得著片刻猶豫嗎？下面：“我給他寫了一封信?！焙竺鎺醉摱际强瞻住＝又羞@么一句話：“沒有回信。”后面又是空白，接著是：“他把威脅付之行動了。”那以后——那以后怎么了？他一頁一頁地翻著。都是空白?？墒?，就在她出事的前一天，寫著這么一句：“我有勇氣也這么做嗎？”日記終止了。吉爾伯特?克蘭登聽任日記本滑落到地上。他能看到她在他眼前。她站在皮卡迪利大街的人行道上。她凝視著前方，緊握著雙拳。車開過來了……他無法再忍受了。他必須了解真相。他大步走到電話機(jī)旁。“米勒小姐!”沒有聲音。接著他聽見房間里有人在走動。“我是西瑟?米勒”——總算聽到她來接電話了?！暗降渍l，”他吼道，“是B.M.？”他聽得見她壁爐架上那座廉價鐘的滴答聲，接著是一聲長長的嘆息。最后她回答說：“他是我兄弟?！蹦鞘撬值埽亲詺⒌男值??！坝惺裁?，”他聽到西瑟?米勒在說，“要我解釋的嗎？”“沒有!”他喊道?！皼]有!”他得到了屬于自己的遺贈。她把真相告訴了他。她走下人行道與情人重新團(tuán)聚。她走下人行道從自己身邊逃逸。TextBWhyMarriagesFailAnneRoiphe1Thesedayssomanymarriagesendindivorcethatourmostsacredvowsnolongerringwithtruth.“Happilyeverafter”and“Tilldeathdouspart”areexpressionsthatseemonthewaytobecomingobsolete.Whyhasitbecomesohardforcouplestostaytogether?Whatgoeswrong?Whathashappenedtousthatclosetoone-halfofallmarriagesaredestinedforthedivorcecourts?Howcouldwehavecreatedasocietyinwhich42percentofoutchildrenwillgrowupinsingle-parenthomes?Eventhougheachbrokenmarriageisunique,wecanstillfindthecommonperils,thecommoncausesformaritaldespair.Eachmarriagehascrisispointsandeachmarriagetestsendurance,thecapacityforbothintimacyandchange.Outsidepressuressuchasjobloss,illness,infertility,troublewithachild,careofagingparentsandalltheotherplaguesoflifehitmarriagethewayhurricanesblastourshores.Somemarriagessurvivethesestormsandothersdon’t.Marriagesfail,however,notsimplybecauseoftheoutsideweatherbutbecausetheinnerclimatebecomestoohotortoocold,tooturbulentortoostupefying.2Whenwelookathowwechooseourpartnersandwhatexpectationsexistatthetenderbeginningsofromance,someofthereasonsfordisasterbecomequiteclear.Weallselectwithunconsciousaccuracyamatewhowillrecreatewithustheemotionalpatternsofourfirsthomes.Dr.CarlA.Whitaker,amaritaltherapistandemeritusprofessorofpsychiatryattheUniversityofWisconsin,explains,“Fromearlychildhoodon,eachofuscarriedmodelsformarriage,femininity,masculinity,motherhood,fatherhoodandalltheotherfamilyroles.”Eachofusfallsinlovewithamatewhohasqualitiesofourparents,whowillhelpusrediscoverboththepsychologicalhappinessandmiseriesofourpastlives.WemaythinkwehavefoundamanunlikeDad,butthenheturnstodrinkordrugs,orloseshisjoboverandoveragainorsitssilentlyinfrontoftheTVjustthewayDaddid.Amanmaychooseawomanwhodoesn’tlikekidsjustlikehismotherorwhogamblesawaythefamilysavingsjustlikehismother.Orhemaychooseaslenderwifewhoseemsunlikehisobesemotherbutthenturnsouttohaveotheraddictionsthatdestroytheirmutualhappiness.3Amanandawomanbringtotheirmarriagebedablendedconcoctionofconsciousandunconsciousmemoriesoftheirparents’livestogether.Thehumanwayistocompulsivelyrepeatandrecreatethepatternsofthepast.SigmundFreudsowelldescribedtheunhappydesignthatmanyofusgettrappedin:theunmetneedsofchildhood,theangryfeelingsleftoverfromfrustrationsoflongago,thelimitsoftrustandtherecurrenceofoldfears.Onceanindividualsensesthisentrapment,theremayfollowayearningtoescape,andtheresultcouldbeabroken,splinteredmarriage.4Ofcoursepeoplecanovercomethehabitsandattitudesthatdevelopedinchildhood.Weallhavehiddenstrengthsandamazingcapacitiesforgrowthandcreativechange.Change,however,requireswork—observingyourpartinarottenpattern,bringingdifficultiesoutintotheopen—andworkrunscountertothebasicmythofmarriage:“WhenIwedthispersonallmyproblemswillbeover.IwillhaveachievedsuccessandIwillbecomethecenteroflifeforthisotherpersonandthispersonwillbemycenter,andwewillmeaneverythingtoeachotherforever.”Thismyth,whicheverymarriagerelieson,issoonexposed.Thecomingofchildren,thepullsandtugsoftheirdemandsonaffectionandtime,placeaconsiderablestrainonthatbasicmythofmeaningeverythingtoeachother,ormergingtogetherandsolvingalloflife’sproblems.5Concernandtensionaboutmoneytakeeachpartnerawayfromtheother.Obligationstodemandingparentsorstill-depended-uponparentscreatefurtherstrain.Couplestodaymustalsodealwithalltheculturalchangesbroughtoninrecentyearsbythewomen’smovementandthesexualrevolution.Thealteringofrolesandtheshiftingofresponsibilitieshavebeenextremelytrying[trying:difficultorannoying;hardtodealwith]formanymarriages.6Theseandotherrealitiesoflifeerodethevisionsofmaritalblissthewaysandstormseatatrockandtheoceannibblesawayatthedunes.Thoseeuphoric,grandfeelingsthataccompanyromanticlovearereallyself-delusions,self-hypnoticdreamsthatenableustoforgearelationship.Reallife,failureatwork,disappointments,exhaustion,badsmells,badcoldsandhardtimesallpuncturethedreamandleaveusstrandedwithourmate,withourchildhoodpatternspushingusthiswayandthat,withourunfulfilledexpectations.7Thestruggletosurviveinmarriagerequiresadaptability,flexibility,genuineloveandkindnessandanimaginationstrongenoughtofeelwhattheotherisfeeling.Manymarriagesfallapartbecauseeitherpartnercannotimaginewhattheotherwantsorcannotcommunicatewhatheorsheneedsorfeels.Angerbuildsuntiliteruptsintoavolcanicburstthatburiesthemarriageinash.8Itisnothardtosee,therefore,howessentialcommunicationisforagoodmarriage.Amanandawomanmustbeabletotelleachotherhowtheyfeelandwhytheyfeelthewaytheydo;otherwisetheywillimposeoneachotherrolesandactionsthatleadtofurtherunhappiness.Insomecases,thecommunicationpatternsofchildhood—ofnottalking,oftalkingtoomuch,ofnotlistening,ofdistrustandanger,orwithdrawal—spillintothemarriageandpreventahealthyexchangeofthoughtsandfeelings.Theansweristosetupnewpatternsofcommunicationandintimacy.9Atthesametime,however,wemustseeeachotherasindividuals.“Toachieveabalancebetweenseparatenessandclosenessisoneofthemajorpsychologicaltasksofallhumanbeingsateverystageoflife,”saysDr.StuartBartle,apsychiatristattheNewYorkUniversityMedicalCenter.10Ifwesensefromourmateaneedfortoomuchintimacy,wetendtopushhimorheraway,fearingthatwemayloseouridentitiesinthemergingofmarriage.Onepartnermaysuffocatetheotherpartnerinachildlikedependency.11Agoodmarriagemeansgrowingasacouplebutalsogrowingasindividuals.Thisisn’teasy.Richardgivesuphisinterestincarpentrybecausehiswife,Helen,isjealousofthetimehespendsawayfromher.Karenquitsherchoirgroupbecauseherhusbanddislikesthefriendsshemakesthere.Eachpairclingstoeachotherandareangrywitheachotheraslifeclosesinonthem.Thiskindofmaritalbalanceiseasilythrownasoneortheotherpullsawayanddivorcefollows.12Sometimespeoplepretendthatanewpartnerwillsolvetheoldproblems.Mostoftenextramaritalsexdestroysamarriagebecauseitallowsanartificialsplitbetweenthegoodandthebad—thegoodisprojectedonthenewpartnerandthebadisdumpedontheheadoftheold.Dishonesty,hidingandcheatingcreatewallsbetweenmenandwomen.Infidelityisjustasymptomoftrouble.Itisasymboliccomplaint,aweaponofrevenge,aswellasanunravelerofcloseness.Infidelityisoftenthatproverbiallaststrawthatsinksthecameltotheground.13Allright—marriagehasalwaysbeendifficult.Whythenareweseeingsomanydivorcesatthistime?Yes,ourmodernsocialfabricisthin,andyes,thepermissivenessofsocietyhascreatedunrealisticexpectationsandthrownthefamilyintochaos.Butdivorceissocommonbecausepeopletodayareunwillingtoexercisetheself-disciplinethatmarriagerequires.Theyexpecteasyjoy,liketheentertainmentonTV,thethrillofagoodparty.14Marriagetakessomekindofsacrifice,notdreadfulself-sa